From Imposter to Inspiration: A Photoshoot Experience

Part 1. The photoshoot and the imposter

My first photoshoot, the buzz, the anticipation, the nerves. The imposter syndrome waiting to poke out. Actually, not waiting, but taking over with every second that went by. A team of professionals about to walk in, and me. A 31 year (baby) girl who doesn’t have a clue what she’s doing. 

A jack of all trades, a little bit okay at everything. Brilliant at nothing. Nervous that people will realise they’re supporting and encouraging someone with very little talent. The person they keep saying is amazing and they are so proud of, is not so amazing at all. 

I feel these feelings every day I work on my business. And I don’t know that they will ever go away. Who knows if Jude will ever be successful? But I do know the mean little voice will always be there. It will always speak the truth when no one else does. At least that’s how I feel. Will I let it stop me, I hope not. 

Part 2. The photoshoot and a sense of lightness

I started to look through the photos 2 days after the shoot, due to tiredness and an international flight. You could say I was also putting it off, procrastinating on what I thought was the inevitable. A failure on my part. 

However, looking at them for the first time I felt a sense of lightness. A smile crept onto my face here, and I sent a positive message sent to the photographer, also a friend. I loved them. They made me fall in love with my collection all over again. And maybe I thought, me being my biggest critic that meant the world would love them too. Lofty ambitions I know. But the imposter was allowing me to have them. Truly unexpected. 

Part 3. The photoshoot and wild love with the photos

Beautiful, amazing, full of talent from the whole team. Wildy exceeded expectations. I started with my favourite campaign shot to help with my fear of dread. This is a habit I picked up when doing selects of thousands and thousands of photos. Start with what you know is going to be your favourite. Ease yourself into it. 

In love is an understatement. These photos are everything I envisioned of my dream coming to life. I couldn’t be happier.

Part 4. The photoshoot as an inspiration for next

Looking through these photos made me so inspired for the next collection. Never one to be satisfied with what I have done of course. All I can think about is what is next. How to elevate. How to make it better next time. Here are my notes…

Next time lean more into the vintage look. 

Vintage hairstyle.

Somehow still work out how to bring the cool factor. Never want it to be straight vintage in feel. 

Byron Bay, vintage house feel. But cool. 

Next batch of clothes to be even more beautiful 

Embroidery? Crochet? Prints?

The possibilities are really endless and that’s why I love this job.

Eden xo